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A recent turn of events of great magnitude has torn through the very fabric of the space/time continuum. Oldsport found my not so family oriented DeviantArt account. This lead to a journal entry on the D.A. account and it has opened an entire discussion on normative social constructs in society today.
You can view the journal posting at http://matrick001.deviantart.com/journal/24961151/#comments.

Me and my pal on D.A., XandarX2, have been duking it out on my journal comments page on the topic of closet cases. It starts off like this:

XandarX2 wrote:
No matter where you are on the world wide web, you are bound to be found out by friends or family. In some cases part of who you want to be, shows up on the internet, and then is found out by people that you have hidden this part of you from. I know it prolly took the breath right out of you when you were told about being found by your friend.

I agree with all you say. I think our society wants to find out how the homosexual world ticks. But it sure is crazy that they have to inspect and dissect that lifestyle. What gets me is it really isn't anyone's business. Personally, coming out shouldn't even be an issue. Who cares what you do in your own home? No one should. But it seems that when a person is asked if they are Gay, the usual response is "Ewwww!" As if it the worse thing a person can do, is to love another person. That is the bottom line... Love.

I don't care to know if Cooper does or doesn't have a bf, or even wants to come out and say so. It's his life... and we would all be better to leave things like this alone... It is not like the gay community is sleeping in the heterosexual's bed.

I know it will be tough decisions for you down the road, but just remember, you are NOT required to tell anyone that you are gay or not. It is not a law, and it should not reflect on anything you do out in society. If people minded their own affairs, they wouldn't have time worrying about "who's sleepin with whom."

*matrick001 wrote:
Haha. It did take the breath right under me. I was my friend's first encounter with a homosexual ever. In fact, he stopped talking in the summer of '97 which was when he found out. Fortunately for us, we had classes together the following fall and he was able to see I was the same guy he had known in high school.

I wish we lived in a world where homosexuality wasn't an issue...where everyone knew that being gay was by no means a choice but a trait like the color of our eyes. Unfortunately, we live in a world where people are stigmatized for not believing in nuclear families. Society deems that a man + woman + children = guranteed happiness. We all know that equation is wrong in so many ways.

Who cares if Anderson Cooper has a bf or not? I do. The more of us who keep quiet the more we uphold the vary constraints that prevent us from having equal rights. The more we try to be "normal" and try not to rock the boat so that the majority will merely tolerate us is a sad existence. It is one that I subscribed to for far too long. Homosexuals should never be tolerated, they should be accepted.

Friendly Fire Pt. 2

This is a video to see how my friends react to the news that I have a video blog. I was expecting a negative reaction but it was quite the opposite.

Weekly Roundup

My meds were increased by 25mg. My never ending battle with panic attacks still continues. I'm sure everyone is getting sick of hearing about it as much as I am.

I beat Final Fantasy IV on the Nintendo DS. Now what am I supposed to do with my lazy time?

I'm quite nervous about my financial situation. I may not be able to afford going to school over the summer. I'm looking into student loans and scholarships.


I got my offical grades in for this past semester. They are:

Graphic Design I (A)
Photography (A)
Gender in Comm. (A)
From Faith to Reason (B)

*The From Faith to Reason grade is aggravating. It was an online class and it was such a mess. The teacher was in a whole different time zone. I had accidentally turned in my midterm late. Also, one of my group members failed to turn in an assignment. The professor was completely unhepful when emailed a question. Her only response was to check the syllubus. All of these things resulted in me getting a B although this was the class I gave the most attention to and had the most stress over. A novel had to be read and an essay turned in every week! Never again will I take an online class.

NEW JOB!

I landed a paid internship at my university. I was called for three interviews. The first interview was with a group of students competing for the same job, it was terrifying. The second was with three interviewers and I completely bombed it because I was asked about the job position and new nothing about it. The last was with one interviewer and I was so nervous that I couldn't come up with a complete sentence practically. Despite all that, I still got hired! I'm excited.

I always get nervous when a door opens. I hope I do well. Today I had to go to a mandatory meeting at the Mexican Consolate. I tried to be as social as I could but the judge inside of me was telling me that I didn't deserve this position. But I hope he shuts up soon because he's getting awfully boring.

Here's my new job description:
1. Recruit volunteer members
2. Organize all programs and events
3. Serve as the lead for major campus events
4. Pland and run all meetings
5. Serve on committees
6. Create and maintain accurate and appropriate files for each event.
7. Produce, execute, and maintain contracts with vendors, entertainment, etc.
8. Promote and market off campus
9. Development of an action plan for your specific area.
10. Attend staff meetings, intern traininigs, and staff retreats
11. Other duties assigned.

Fox Noise

I'm annoyed with Fox News. Days leading to Obama's speech at Notre Dame, the "conservative" news channel was predicting pending doom for the President at the commencement ceromonies of the Roman Catholic School.

They were interviewing students who were against abortion, they were taking polls, and they had "experts" on the issue giving their two cents on the issue. What they didn't expect was how eloquent Obama's speech was.

A guy started to scream out "Abortion is murder! Stop killing children!" right in the middle of Obama's speech, but the Audience drowned his voice out by chanting, "We are ND! We are ND! AUDIENCE: Yes, we can! Yes, we can!" This warmed my little heart.

By the time the whole thing was over, Fox went back to attacking Nancy Pelosi and very little was said about the speech. For a while there, I actually thought that a simple grad speech was an issue but it really wasn't. I think its funny how Fox made this huge effort to make Obama look bad and it backfired in their face.

Friendly Fire

I don't know anyone who has a blog let alone a video blog in my circle of friends. I am still getting used to the whole idea of having a blog. This is way out of character for me. I think its a good thing to put myself out there like that. Maybe if I make an ass out of myself in front of the camera, then I won't be so worried about what people think of me in real life. But I still want to know what people think about me having a blog. I called my close friend, Anissa, to see what she thinks about this. The outcome was a lot more positive than what I had thought.

EEEEeee New PSB Video

I didn't know they were gonna release it so soon. It was a happy little surprise when I went to their website. 'Did you see me coming' is a campy song but its reminiscent of their 'Very' album which was their best.

The Way it Used to be

One of my favorite songs from the Pet Shop Boys new album is a song called, "The way it used to be." I like it because it tells of ex-lovers coming of age and realizing that not even time has changed their feelings. Neil Tennant has some strong vocals in the track. Upon listening to it over and over, I had an idea to emphasize that voice in a remix. I used Adobe Soundbooth to duplicate the vocals into one song. I never used soundbooth before so this remix is a rough edit. Overall, it's how I envisioned it in my head. It kept me busy for three days straight.

Star Trek Review

Star Trek was a good movie...just not a good Star Trek movie. It had lot's of action and lot's of comedic relief. It had some amazing scenes with the original Spock. The new McCoy is spot on with the original. The elavator scene with Spock and Uhura was touching. However, it fell short of a story that Star Trek is known for.

The biggest issue is that this movie is not a prequel but an alternate universe. I acknowledge that alternate universes are inherently Star Trek but this shamelessly eradicates the known future with Capt. Picard, Sisko, and Janeway. I mean, what about if Star Wars had done this with its prequels? Anakin Skywalker's story would make no sense by the time Luke Skywalker came into the picture. The timeline was ignored and it's all the worse for it.

Another issue is Nero. He was supposed to be the greatest villain in Star Trek since Khan. Not so. He is a mere footnote in the movie. He's thrown back in time and angry at Kirk and Spock for Romulus being destroyed. And that's it. Very little of Nero's actions are explained. He's just an angry guy trying to blow up planets. Nero is one of the weakest villains in Star Trek. Shinzon is better.

It is evident that J.J. Abrams managed to come up with a script that would make Star Trek a cash cow for him by making it suitable only to pop culture. Star Trek is intelligent. It is thought provoking. No thoughts are provoked in this movie especially when it comes to the ill conceived notion of red matter. It seems to me that if Abrams didn't want to make a Star Trek movie then he should have stuck with something else instead.

I give it five question marks! ?????

Anxiety Update