Weekly Roundup

This week was weird. The anxiety level I started off with was enough to kill a small animal. The adrenaline and worry caused me to isolate myself for the better half of the week.

My friend Anissa had called to see how my new job had been going. She asked about my next assignment and I told her I hadn’t gotten one yet but that I had hoped it wouldn’t be in a while seeing how the summer semester is a bit slower than the fall and spring. That very next day, I was text by my photo editor for a shoot that evening. I of course cursed at the irony. I had to photograph the cast of a new play the university is showing. I had a bundle of nerves getting to the theatre. Fortunately the promo lady for the show was also taking photos and giving the cast directions on how to pose. It was the easiest shoot ever. I had worried myself for nothing!

I saw my therapist in mid week. I updated her on my increasing anxiety. She took note that my anxiety levels weren’t this high since my Starbucks job. But now I have jobs that are important to me and I told her I’m determined not to sabotage myself yet again. The therapist then introduced me to my new blue giraffe. I don’t know why but the blue giraffe was an epiphany. It was like the clouds had parted revealing the brilliance of the sun and the world. My blue giraffe gives me permission to be me and forgives my flaws by acknowledging that that‘s inherently what it is to be me. By the rest of the week my anxiety levels were near zero.