"I didn't succeed at my attempts to control emotions. Emotional control has been a survival behavior for me. I can thank that behavior for helping me get through many years and situations where I didn't have any better options. But I have learned a healthier behavior--accepting my feelings.
We are meant to feel. Part of our dysfunction is trying to deny or change that. Part of our recovery means learning to go with the flow of what we're feeling."
Quote by Melodie Beattie from The Language of Letting Go.
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it speaks to me too.
ReplyDeletewhen i was at school i was bullied. i was bullied cause i was a sci fi geek. i was bullied cause i was adopted i was bullied cause i was well spoken. i was bullied cause i was gay. i was bullied cause i was south american. i was bullied because i was diferent. so i did what the vulcans do i removed emotion from the equasion and i grinned and beared it.
i shut off my emotions. detached myself from them. as a result i didn't cry when my grany died. i now embrace my feelings and emotions. but at the same time i know when needed i can push them back. i'd love to go withthe flow but what if the flow is takeingyouto adark place? or on to the jaggerd rocks do you still go with the flow? or do you build a canue and stear your way down stream to freedom?